cry

i cried myself to sleep last night. it's been a long time since i actually let go of everything on my shoulders.
it felt good.

there's so much to cope with. and emotionally i am not strong enough.
but since i appear to be the strong one i just suck it in. family issues can drive me up the wall. even the most minute and ridiculous ones.

oh well. who doesn't have issues one way or the other?
suck it in amy.

burnt.

the weather in lumut was extraordinarily hot.
no words could express it unless you've been there within these past week or so. the heat wave is expected to last till june. and no, no sight of pangkor as we were working non stop.

nevertheless everything went well at our booth. we didn't get to walk a lot even in the exhibition area since there were always visitors and everyone was busy doing their part. we also didn't have proper lunch throughout our stay in lumut as there's not much food sold in the navy base (or none near our booth). and my feet is aching from all the standing and walking into and out of the base (we had to park about 2-3 km away). ouchh.

oh well. i was planning to write a lot more. will upload pics and stories later...

it's just that i'm disturbed with an email - somehow the tone of the email just doesn't sound right. somehow.
i guess saying sorry won't suffice. sometimes we get burnt. i know. i still do. but till we let go and smile and move on we won't heal...


nite nite.

weekend @ lumut

it's been ages since i went to lumut..or pangkor...
although our friends who are already there warned us of the humidity i can't be less excited. it's ok, i can get burnt...

take me anywhere near the sea and i will float in my own bubble again...hopefully i can take some time walking around...crossing over to pangkor would be fabulous!

i hope our booth at the navy base will be a hit this weekend and the next time we mention the company's name people would know straight away...

have a good weekend everyone!

true...(or so i guess?)

looking and looking.

awkward-ness

my brother's gf is now on practical. on my floor - at the legal dept. it's so awkward :p

i am easily attached to practical students, particularly those on my floor but this time it's weird because this is a person who's very important at this point of time to my baby brother's life. and we've not met her before this. guess i'm the only one who've met her in the family.

sweet little girl. hehe.

it's weird tho. don't think i'm going to be particularly close to her. it's just weird. maybe i'm not ready. not ready to be the future sis-in-law. chehh..hehe. i know, i know...it's a long way to go. but this is my baby brother we're talking about. oh no! :p

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on the other hand i wish i have a map for everything i need directions for. but it's just too much. i know. it's just i wish i do have that map so that i can take a seat, look at the map and analyze my next step. sigh.

i need to start planning for my trip and leave my world behind.

rasanya bumi Makkah akan terimakah ibadah ku?

saturday smiles

i just realized my passport is shy of it's 6 months validity period when we had to apply for visa.. and so i drove over to bndr dmnsara today to have it renewed.


while waiting for my turn - my sister and i were noticing certain patterns in malaysians (the office is only opened for malaysians today). in short, we are really, impatient people. while i wasn't in any rush we could see people cutting lines, making really rude remarks, just barge to a counter to ask questions in a rough tone when there's someone there, etc.

so embarassing, ok?

i was interrupted a few times when i was finally at the counter for processing. aahh malaysians. no "excuse me", no "sorry", no "hello". a


if it wasn't for my own experience, i would have come to the conclusion that the immigration service is crappy. but really, they caught me off guard. while the crowd was easing off i could hear the officers speak. they were really nice and friendly. and courteous too.

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so when it was my turn i was attended to by this young indian boy, about my brother's age. and he was really nice and helpful. me being me, ended up chatting a little bit. he was talking about how some people are just grumpy and plain rude. and i told him, i work in PR. it's common in my world too.

then..he saw the status part on my form - marked as "single".

if i can snap a picture of how shocked he looked it would be great to post on my blog.
"akak, belum kahwin lagi?"
and i nodded with a smile. (oh no. pls don't ask why.)

instead he said "nama akak sedap, akak cantik, berbudi bahasa pulak tu. saya harap akak jumpa calon yang baik".

and i broke into laughters. then he went on "nanti akak jemput saya pergi kenduri ye".
and by then i was done and said thank you before having to turn back a few times because he was saying thank you a few more times.

while i was paying the fees (ouch there goes 300 bucks), he was signalling to my sister that i was a good customer. hehe. i know how he must feel. one whole morning of crappy customers and finally someone came up to say hello.

anyhow. it brought smiles to my face :)

blue

i love rubber duckies. i used to have a "ducky" bank where i will fill in with unused coins from skool. cute.

but if i can express how i feel now it would be just like the blue ducky.

roller coaster ride

last thursday on what seemed like a fine afternoon turned into a quite dramatic mode at about 345 p.m. i was called to the lobby by the reception. she sounded so firm on the phone "cik amy boleh turun immediately tak, kakYati sakit".

so i rushed down and saw my colleague seated on a chair, all curled up and screaming in pain. by the time the wheelchair came a good 20 minutes have lapsed. and not knowing what to do scared me. since she was really weak, 2 men had to help her get onto the wheelchair. and off we went to my car to rush her to hospy. and i had to ask one person to come with me since i am clueless about hospy...(hehe)

she was falling in and out of consciousness in the car and by the time i drove into the emergency lobby of pantai, we had to put her on a stretcher. and there i was handling all the documents...trying to track down her next of kin...etc..etc..then move on to admission registration, etc etc. wah. complicatednye to get admitted. thank God for medical benefits...

by the time we got her out of ER and admitted it was almost 7pm...
as of today....she's still in hospy...maybe we'll cheer her up today during lunch since it was her bday on saturday :)

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hmm. it's monday again. the weekend, other than jazzercise the only other exciting thing i did was catching up on tv series. oh.. and also taking mom shopping. gosh.

to a friend who prolly won't initiate any communication with me anymore - i am not proud of certain things that happened. but it's beyond me to change things. so if i did, hurt you unintentionally, i am..sorry.
bounce fast, k?
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crumpled love letters

thanks farah boo :)

when all stood still

sometimes i forget time is ticking. before i knew it months have lapsed.

2 friends called me up and visited the office yesterday. it's nice to have "visitors" at work. considering it's really slow in the office anyway.

anyhow - one friend - who just got back from overseas attachment was talking about the adjustment period back in kl and how he's glad to be home with his kids while he still strive for more overseas challenge.

and the other, who got back after 5 1/2 months sailing onboard, was busy talking about his wedding plans this june.

wow. and i was like - has it been that long since they i last met them?
has it been that long and i haven't done or achieved anything significant?

s.c.a.r.y.

csr round the clock

for us in PR the csr projects have become part of our job scope. but it's good to have one dept doing csr project almost every weekend. it's great to have everyone make time and have fun while doing good.

it's not just through official works that we should do csr. i think csr comes in a whole lot of form. pay-it-forward is also a great thing.

somehow doing good is the only thing that can stir up a satisfaction when you see smiles and hopes and determination on those faces.

somehow.