it's great to be home.
it takes a few days for me to re-gain my voice but it was all worth it. and not to mention - getting rid of that uniform. i don't want to see it ever again. hehe.

after monday's agm we will be quite relaxed. just in time for ramadhan. i'd like to cut down work during that month...it would be nice to recuperate and get in touch with food for soul.

the past one month has changed quite a bit of my perspective. meeting students all around and talking to them. and yes; entertained lots of concerns by adik-adik. i feel so relieved that i'm no longer in their shoes. it can be stressful; can't it? and sometimes it scares me to give opinions or ideas. we each face different path of life. i can only speak of mine; which is definitely non-exclusive.

anyhow. it's great to end up a roadshow with tonnes of new friends. but i think for now i had enough being around kids. some of them are cute; but they're still kids. heh. they somehow make me feel old. *-*

time to catch up with old friends and making time for myself.

hv a good one.

south to north

i got back from jb last friday nite. it was an awesome trip down south. utm kids were wonderful. i think we felt more welcomed than we ever did in other univ. we are very proud indeed for having touched their lives in such a way. definitely a project that we'd like to continue doing...

managed to squeeze in some jalan2x time in jb and singapore as well. i am so blessed with great friends...one friend drove close to 2 hours to meet me at utm - with loads of local fruits and a whole bunch of prezzies. in singapore i met up with an old college buddy who also spoiled me with presents. suke suke :)
di samping itu i got wonderful shoes from charles & keith and a cool handbag from 9. hehee sunggoh me-releasekan stress ok. ok. wasn't supposed to shop. but it was too good of a bargain. hehe.

anyhow. am getting ready to leave to kedah. uum is our final destination. there would probably be less jalan2x to do but it's my kampong and it makes my heart warm :) takpe..we can watch all the dvd we bought in jb when we're stuck at night in jitra :p

toodles!
p/s: ramadhan menjengah lagi ye?

the birthday wish

i got my first bday wish today. from jusco! heh!
this way-in-advance-wish came with a nice card and my birthday-month description:

//Amelia Wardah Kassim//
Personality:
"Comical; attractive; sophisticated; leader by nature; caring; observant & romantic"

wah wah. jusco ni nak bodek i ke ape? ape2x pon; jusco one utama bes ok.
hehe
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our project um is over. other than a few incidents where i was insulted with people assuming my volunteers goyang kaki - the event went well with overwhelming students today.

2 down. utm next week and uum the week after. let's just get it over with. macik penat. huhu.

feeling blue?

i feel blue.
after all the long hours of working + trying not to accept any "less than maximum" + driving in the bangsar traffic to get my volunteers back to the office and spend an extra hour to drive back for what was supposed to be a 15 mins cruise. yes; um is blakang rumah daku ye. yet i felt guilty not driving them back to the office. two days in a row. takpe la. they are under my care kan?

sometimes i wonder the things i do. i go all out for this i am passionate about. and feel like crap in the end. like i'm actually not a critical element at all. crappy. crappy. crappy.

who bothers when there aren't enough volunteers? who bothers that i have to work in between to get enough volunteers to cover the next day. and get panelist replacements? and answer all these calls from office the whole day? why can't suggestions be made to challenge the system? why do i even bother to have my people do promotions when less is ok?

being below target is sad. pathetic even. it's a team effort and it's scary. i hate it when the big boss asks for the figures and ask if we're doing enough. erks. did we really do enough?

get what i mean?

me neither. huh.gosh 1 august is around the corner. the shift better be worth the drama.

toodles.

jom pi um?

we're commencing our project at um tomorrow for the next 3 days. yeay! it's so close to home that i don't have to drive at 130-140 like i did when i was trying to get to ukm...hehe :p

is it still true that um always get the "creme de la creme" students? i was going to be a student in um in 98 but that didn't work out. but did hear that um always gets the top cut.

anywhow. it is pretty obvious the students in um are of different league than those in ukm. i don't want to judge. but based on our interactions; it really is obvious. it's our second year already being in the project. and it became much more obvious now.

is it the "type" of students that were sent to these universities or is it the "culture" imposed in the universities itself that shape the students' mentalities and attitude? results sume mesti about the same?

i miss being a student. i miss it. i miss it. i miss wearing jeans + t shirt + nike and cycle to classes everyday and thenafter to my partime consulting job.

i miss it. but won't give up my career anytime soon. maybeee in a few years?

toodles!

watchout for a shopaholic on the loose. hanging around OneUtama with her hands full of shopping bags.

watchout for a shopaholic on the loose who drives in the fast lane. hehee.

watchout for a shopaholic on the loose. who walks around for hours to get all the stuff she needed to buy for stock.

enough shopping for a few months. pheww. time for putting aside for savings miss shopaholic.

got stuff for mom and dad too. just awaiting my brother to walk properly before getting him a new pair of shoes. his shoes cost three times of my shoes. whoa. adek oh adek.

sigh. fun ke jadi shopaholic?
well. only when you have the money. hehehee.

enjoy the weekends!

my overused feet

tomorrow marks our third day & the last day in ukm for our csr workshop (http://www.navigate.com.my/). it's been about a week since we were in ukm to make final plannings. one university down - 3 more coming till end of august.

we have been walking and climbing stairs - oh susahnye nak gi kuliah rupenye...hehee to go to dialogue sessions etc. and i temporary forgot how much my feet ache when about 300 kids went out from the classes saying thanks to us and telling us how much the loved the workshops!not to mention their cute "thanks kak amy! or Hi kak amy!"

but yes. our feet are still aching. ouch. rase macam nak pakai my nike but hehe. boss tak approve laa casual or sports wear. huhu. really in dire need of a foot massage before moving to um next week.

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my current boss is giving me the silent treatment. and i don't understand why. i am slowly letting go of my stuff to my 2 new colleagues who will be taking over and yet he always makes me feel like i am underperforming. i.e. today he refused to give me my merit performance letter or chat with me during our lunch break - duduk same table ok?on top of wanting me to go to a meeting in office when 2 other colleagues are around. and he KNOWS i handle all 60+ volunteers for our event. he KNOWS.

i guess the transition will be a little more difficult. we all know the official date for me to move to the new section is 1 august but technically this csr project is run by the whole dept. so i am not leaving his section yet. sigh. why are male bosses so difficult to understand? why can't he just tell me why he can't give his new staff a chance?

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oh ya. i am managing 60 people and so far i am still sane.hehe macam2x ragam. changing schedules; want to do that instead of this; nak tshirt instead of our site shirt;etc. macam2x. then sangat manja pon ade gak. i must sms them to remind what time; where; etc. and then i make a point to thank them personally by sms. wahh. kene call to check their whereabout; kene check they had eaten or not yet...huhu i wish i won't become a big boss to manage big groups. maybe i am not made to be a big boss. hehee. kerenah org ni susah nak predict. although with a minor in sociology i don't think i can ever understand people. hehe. but i tried. and trying my best.

i need to soak my feet in hot water. then sapu minyak angin. old fashion way works too :)
toodles!